Loss and Light: Vicki's Heartfelt Share: Dealing with Grief and Loss One Year On.

Sacha is a constant presence in my life, her energy surrounds me always, even though I can't physically hug her.

I feel her through the vibrations in her things, clothes, and art she has made me over the years.

She used to come up and wrap her arms around me hugging me tightly, quite often followed up with a bite on the shoulder.

Talking with her friends we were horrified to hear that Sacha was known to bite everyone, and seeing photos there were lots with a cheeky grin and gnashes open for the ready.

Special Days:

One special way I connect with her is by placing my hand over a handprint she and Natasha made me for Mother's Day 2020.

For my first Mother’s Day without Sacha, we went down to the waterfront markets, I had found some money in her wallet so brought myself on her behalf an almond chai latte and a cinnamon sugar churro, her favorite.

Bruce Natasha and I wandered through the crowd looking like lost souls, Sacha always loved exploring the different food vendors and street artists.

On the hand print canvas, I feel her energy vibration from her hand transferring to mine, traveling into my heart, creating a very tangible vibration between us.

Spiritual Veil and Our Year of Firsts:

My birthday was the first of our birthdays to occur on the 31st of October. Halloween is a day that holds special meaning in many traditions. It is a time when the veil between the living and the dead is thin. 

Sacha's presence was strong during this time, I could feel her standing right in front of my face up so close, as if I could just reach out and touch her. 

The grief was overwhelming.

On Natasha's birthday, the Solstice 22nd Dec she hid away in her room the week on either side of her birthday and cried.

She often sees and feels Sacha curled up with her in her bed, as her toddler energy when they were their closest, Baby Mamma Natasha!

Sacha's Mermaid and Connecting with Cleleo:

Over the past few years, we have become aware of mermaid beings as part of our family group.

Cleleo like most mermaids, are not sweet and innocent like the TV dramas perceive them to be. She is fierce and protective.

During the second week of Sacha’s trip to India, I felt Cleleo was there with her, Sacha was in so much pain as her health deteriorated quickly, and experienced bullying from fellow team and officers.

So much was going on for Sacha in India with the NZCF (Cadet Force), in time I will be able to share more.

Since Sacha’s passing the Defence Force has at my request investigated with a full Court of Enquiry into the February 2023 India trip and the NZ Cadet Force Organisation.

Remembering the Good Times:

Sacha had a vibrant personality and was always there for others. She stood up against bullies and injustice, supporting those who needed her.

It brings a brief respite as fleeting memories pop up of her laughter, her cheeky trouble, her strength, and her compassion.

Finding Healing and Strength:

Throughout my grieving process, I've developed coping mechanisms and rituals that bring me strength.

I've made weekly trips to the art framers to get many photos framed!!!

Visit the beach

Sit with my trees and watch birds soaring in the sky

Shut the door curl up in bed and cry...

I use manuka oil on the soles of my feet,

meditate with my crystals,

and I tune in with Sacha's spirit energy morning and night. 

It takes time to quiet my mind and transcend the pain of my ego storyline running, but with the support of my energetic team and Archangel Michael, I find strength and healing.

It's a gradual process, and some days are harder than others, but I know that Sacha is all around us now.

Conclusion:

Grief and loss are deeply personal experiences that shape our lives.

By opening up and sharing my story, I hope to provide comfort and support to others who may be going through a similar journey. 

It's okay to spiral, and it's okay to feel the full range of emotions at a sudden moment many times a day, to the extent of shutting down for a day or so.

Connect with your energetic team, tap into your inner strength, and be all in the brief moments of solace. 

Sending you so much love, Vicki

In loving memory of Sacha.

Please check out Vicki's Heartfelt Share YouTube video below.

All our love Vicki and team

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